Back to Work

Starting tomorrow I will be a full-time working mom. I feel physically and mentally prepared. Bags are packed, bottles are ready, forms are filled out, and I know this is how it has to be. I can't believe how quickly these 12 weeks have gone by. I am not emotionally ready to leave Jack for the entire day. I've only been apart from him for two 1 hour periods. I really wish I could ease us both into this and start out only working half days but that's just not possible. This first week is going to be really hard but I'm hoping the transition isn't all bad. I'll be very busy at work this first week so hopefully that'll help make it go by fast. I've got framed pictures for my desk and I'll make one of his pics my wallpaper on the computer. He'll be with me the whole time! I've even got a sound clip on my phone of him crying in case I need some help when pumping.

I know everything will be fine, but I'm anxious and kind of freaking out! The daycare provider is very loving and will take good care of Jack. But it'll take awhile for them to get to know each other and during that time I'll be worried for my little bug. She might not be able to console him right away and I hate that I won't be there when he needs me. He'll also probably have a hard time taking a bottle. He's only ever had 4 bottles and he did okay with those, but I'm sure it'll take some time for him to adjust. I know it's going to take me some time to adjust to pumping at work 3 times a day. I'm not sure how that is going to work since I don't have my own office and the one main room I plan on using doesn't have a lock. I don't think anyone would just walk in, but there's a chance it could be occupied when I need it. I just wish we had a secure place where I could go and pump in peace.

I'll write about how it goes when I get the chance. My days are going to be a lot different from now on and I won't have a lot of extra time. When I'm not at work, I plan on having as much fun with Jack as possible!

I'm going to miss this face!