Blogging

I have been completely unmotivated to do much blogging. Being a parent is time-consuming, exhausting, and just plain hard! It's also amazing, rewarding, joyful, and the most important thing I'll ever do. But man, is it hard! All last week I didn't even get a complete shower. I finally took a nice long shower on Saturday (thanks to my dad for keeping an eye on Jack) and it was awesome! That was to be expected in the newborn stage, but now? I never would have guessed! Jack has started becoming really attached to me lately and doesn't even want me to leave the room.

Does anyone else feel that this stage is way harder than the newborn stage? If I'm to be completely honest here, the newborn stage is boring. It's sweet, cuddly, and goes by way too fast, but it's also pretty boring. This stage is super fun and I love watching Jack play and learn new things. But he's also starting to, not really throw tantrums, but express himself more. For instance, when he doesn't want to do something and I pick him up, he throws his body back and does this whiny scream thing. Or he throws his toys. I know I'm lucky and that it could be much worse. And in order to be able to appreciate the good, you have to take the not-so-good. I'll take Jack throwing a small fit if it also means I get to experience his sweet little kisses which he is very generous with. He also does this cheesy grin now that is so absolutely adorable. It melts my heart! Plus, I have to remember that Jack is learning how to express himself and communicate his wants and feelings. His way of communicating is not always going to be pleasant! But understanding it doesn't mean I have to like it!

Thankfully he isn't violent and he's very sweet. Overall, he is a very happy kid and doesn't give me much trouble. A big part of it is that he isn't sleeping as well as he used to and I think it's really taking it's toll on us. It's getting a lot harder to put him down, both at night and for naps, and the last couple of weeks he's been waking up a couple times throughout the night. I think me weaning him might have something to do with this and also he's cutting his molars. There are a lot of changes going on in his life! But when he does wake up, it takes me an hour to get him back to sleep. I'm also the only one who has ever put him down or gotten up with him. Basically what this means is that, after being on the computer all day at work, I really don't feel like getting on the computer when I get home. This also means that my house looks like a tornado came through it, because after putting Jack to bed, making dinner, doing dishes, and taking an hour to eat and realx in front of the t.v., all I want to do is go to bed so I can get up the next day and do it all over again.

Now I'm not making excuses or complaining. I truly have nothing to complain about. I feel so blessed and grateful for everything that I have. Jack and I are healthy with food to eat and a roof over our heads. I'm just tired and don't feel like using up my little bit of down time to blog. And really, there isn't that much to even blog about these days! I am in a food rut when it comes to Jack, and I plan on writing a post about that one of these days. But there's really not too much going on. Oh, I also need to write a post about the signing DVD's that I bought and have been watching with Jack. We love it, but the theme song is constantly stuck in my head!

Hopefully I'll get to these topics soon, and hopfully I'll get motivated to blog more. There's so much that I want to record. Jack is constantly changing and it's easy to forget what he was doing just last month. I want to be able to look back and remember as much as possible! I did change my ticker at the top of my page, so that's a start! :)

Thanks for reading my mini-rant. I wish more moms would talk about the challenges of life with a toddler!